Month: October 2018

Nowadays, we are planing my Nhung’s trip in November, to China. But there is a bad guy becoming an obstacle in front of us.This is about the delay and price of  visa. People is greedy, ask once and once again, more and more.We are very angry about what she did.

But this time, I do not want to talk much about this guy and the sad thing. I am still full with happiness.Because our nice parents.

As we all known, understanding is the most important thing between people. I and Nhung, are very amazing,  found each other in this world.But, coming with the amazement, also has many problems.

Although I always believe we can make it. But the time I think, will get long.Like Nhung’s mom likes me, allows Nhung come to meet my family; like my parents will accept our love, allow us love each other, and so on.But now, we make it.I think our love moves them, our parents. 

When I saw Nhung’s dad smile, when I knew Nhung’s mom likes us and help Nhung come to China, when my dad tried to pronounce Nhung’s name, when I heard my mom said we would wait Nhung coming…Many things, moved me too, gave me support.

I always think, people should be appreciative, so, now, at this time, this moment, I want to say “thank you” to our parents. Thanks our parents giving us life, thanks our parents growing us up, thanks our parents let us love, thanks our parents support us.

In the future, we will have much happy life because what our parents’ have done. And I and Nhung, will take care of everyone of you, let you feel happy too.

Best Regards

Your son, Van

Today is the happiest day these years I have!You ask me why?Haha, let me laugh a while first and tell you…

Because : My girlfriend Huỳnh Thị Quỳnh Nhung, will come to China in November!!!!!!!

BOOM~~~Surprise~~~~~~

Da Nang : 24 – 32 ℃

Hang Zhou : 12 – 24 ℃

Last night, I think it is an important night. My love told my something, she said she know she love me now, so she told me some truthes…

Lies always hurt people, like I did before. Love is love, lie is lie.So, I choose to accept those lies and the sad truth.Maybe I show my careless face, but my heart is also bleeding.But I am a man, and I love Nhung so much.

Now I think we can be totally honest to each other.We have each other now and future.The past, we encountered some not proper people, but now, we met each other.We should treasure each other.

I love you so much, Nhung. I hope you will love me like I love you.And let us face all problems, do not say leave, just keep our heart as we first meet.

Huỳnh Thị Quỳnh Nhung, I love you.

Time goes by, our love never changes.My Nhung loves me so much as I love her.The problems between us are always be resolved by our marvelous love!Nothing can stop us loving each other.

The feelings about I have Nhung and I do not have Nhung are really different.When I know I have Nhung, my heart beats strongly and my body always feel warm and ease.I looks much younger and more activity.I really do not feel any tired.I work with full energy, eat with good appetite, sleep having sweet dream, smile with bright eyes, etc.

Nhung, you are my wife, right?I am your husband, I know~The future belongs to two of us.We have many things to do, we have many countries to travel, we have many food want to taste, we have many happiness to get.

I love you, Nhung, let us love each other forever.

Change live style:25 regrets at the end of life  is a book written by a Japanese doctor Shūichi Ōtsu, who’s job is taking care of people will pass aways soon.

I read it, because I want to reduce those regrets as much as possible. When I die, I can die with smile and say goodbye to everyone and to this beautiful world.I do not want to let my relatives see my tears when I die and I also do not want to take some bad mood to die.

I know, there must be more than 25 things people will regret when they pass away. But the 25 things this book saying are really representative.

And now, I am experiencing one of them, will make me regret when I die.So I attach much importance to it.I put it as the most important thing in my life’s current phase.

I love a Vietnamese girl and she loves me too.I know our love is very pure, because we do not need other’s some material things.We both live well in our own country.We have our own family, our own job, our own friends…What we want are each other’s miss, care and love.

At this love’s beginning, I think we both do well, or I can say amazing.We expressed our love bravely to each other, we created many chances to meet each other, we give each other much more care, we keep our loyalty to each other, etc.

Nowadays, we meet a problem, trust problem, because coming from my fear, and growing up by my fear too.The reason was claimed in the previous posts.And in this essay, I will not say it again. It is not because I am afraid to face it, it because once we say it, it will hurt my love once.I know I have sin and I am a criminal, so once I admit it, I am also hated by myself.I know I should suffer it.

What I want to say now, is my love.Although I made mistake to my love, but this is not betray, and it comes from my original fear.My love, is purest.My loyalty to my love, is undoubted.Nhung said once:”love is love, lie is lie”. Yes, it is right.My love is so pure and I love Nhung very much.So, I really do not want to regret when I die, when I remember this love.

These days, I also repented and reflected on myself. I know I made a mistake, I have sin. But I am selfish, I still want to chase my love.I also want to rebuild our trust. I also want to get Nhung.It makes me struggled. Now I know someone in the jail, what does they think about.You have no excuse to find, because it is your fault.But you are mortal, you made mistake maybe because some not so bad reason.But you still caused some bad influence to someone.And now you are in jail.But you want to be a good man, want to be a better man…

So, I want to be a better man, and the most important thing is, I love Nhung but I was scared, so I made a mistake, and the mistake is not about betray.Because I love Nhung, so I can say this and want her love so die to shame…I do not want to regret when I die in the future. When I think about this love, I want to smile, not regret. I want to see my wife’s picture and smile when I die.

“Yeah, you say them out loud Those words

They never go away

They live on, even when we’re gone”

Today, HangZhou is still cold.I hope Da Nang get warmer, because my Nhung’s body is so weak…And wearing little clothes. Maybe you can wear what I bought for you? Now I wore that clothes, and it makes me feel warmer.Da Nang’s temperature is not cold like HangZhou, so that clothes can keep my love warm.

I am trying to learn Vietnamese, finding the book, like Tiếng Việt 123.I think I am not stupid, so if I spend time to learn something, I can make it.

I always imagine talking with Nhung’s parents and Tỉn. It makes me feel so happy.And I know, if I can speak Vietnamese, they will be happy too.So why not?

Now I have many goals to chase, and my heart is calm down and peaceful. So I should keep my steps one by one, love my wife, achieve those goals~

Watch me, Nhung, I will show you my love.

Today i feel so cold. My clothes make me so cold… Danang have rain..  I buy one cup milk tea,  listen music and see rain..  

My mom and dad worry about me,  but i say i fine.  My heart feel miss and peaceful.  See my flowers , start learning Chinese 🎉🎉 .. I find one page teach Chinese,  i can speak it,  but writing it so difficult..  I will try my best.  I know i can do it.  

Look at the time.  I know my van now still  work.  I know u will be fine.  I know u will miss me.  I know we can do it. Just not now.  I still cry and cry like a kid.  Make my family worry about it.  But i cant stop.  Now i want sleep.  Dreams about u…  About us..  About…  I don’t know  . Maybe my future. 

Da Nang weather : 24 – 28 ºC

Hang Zhou weather ： 11 – 22 ºC

This is the first day I live without you, nhung. It is painful. But I should take it. Because the mistake I made.

At the morning, I overslept…I waked up first time at 7 AM by some decorated noise. I sent you my miss, and I realized you blocked me.It is not shocked, right? Because we take a deal last night. I should take this punishment and see how much I love you…

I keep sending your message and keep receiving the block warning.Now you cannot see my miss, but you know it, right?

I know you will see my wechat’s moments, and read this article. I know you love me as I love you, so much. 

Last night, we were afraid to say some bad result, and we tried our best to make the other one calm and believe.We planed our next year, promise we will not do something to make the other one sad or disappointed. And we promise we can wait. Honey, you know? It is so warm. Although you do not call me husband, but I know your love. Although we cannot talk with each other now, but we know we love each other so much.

It is 13:32, we always talk with each other during this time before.After eating lunch, I will go back and call you.Today, I feel so lonely.I spent 20 minutes to eat. I eat as long as I can, because I know after lunch, I cannot talk with you.And I spent 30 minutes to take sunshine, think about somethings, and 30 minutes to walk.

Do you eat something, my darling?Do you feel hot today?Do you want to talk with me?Do you feel better now?I am here.

My love, I will work hard and love you, wait you come back.

I made a mistake, at the beginning: I lied to my Nhung. I hide my ex. Because I was afraid Nhung would get angry and leave me.I love Nhung so much, but now she did not trust me anymore.

Yes, everyone will say it is my fault. I admit it. It is a really stupid decision. Now I made Nhung’s heart break and make us break up.

I felt so sad. My mind cannot think about any other things.I cannot see anything.I cannot hear anything.I cannot felt anything.All I know is, I love Nhung so much.If something I can do to repair our relationship, I will do it without thinking anything.

How can I go back China?

I lost my love, it is my all.I lost it.

My life cannot rollback.

I am transferring everything to Nhung, but now, it is going down.I will lose my all.

I hope miracle would happen.

I am in the darkest place.

Today i feel so hurt… When i close my eyes,  i climbing in the dark . My tear , my hurt … Who can understand me now ? Who can understand how much i hurt…  No one… 

I only 22.. I think , when i love someone,  just love.. Just want he good to me , dont lie to me.  It enough for me . But no…  No one make me feel that.  

My ex always say he never chat with other girls or lie to me.  I trust him.  And then i know he talking with other girls,  they have baby . Who can feel it make me hurt so much? But i always think it ok.  I think i need to thanks him because i can meet van… I always think that.  One guy can love me because me.  Never lie to me,  make me feel warm,  safe and happy..  But now..  I think i wrong .. I sorry to myself,  make my heart broken… I wrong about trust someone so easy .. I always scared my doubt is right.  I always scared i trust someone and when i know he lie me..  I just want to die … Who can know my feelings now…. Who can…